sparklesglow

Sometimes

I feel that I am not a good person,

Sometimes

I feel useless,

Sometimes

I just want to give up,

Sometimes

I feel like I am no role model, nor hero.

Sometimes

I think that nobody loves me, or people pretend to be my friend.

Sometimes

 I talk to myself, out of desperation of having someone to talk to.

Everyday

My eyes fill with tears,

Out of loneliness,

Desperate to go outside,

Be with someone,

When will I get the chance

To be free?

Everyday

I sit down

And just wonder

Sometimes 

I smile just because I am happy

Am I happy right now?

I'm not sure

I just wish I could be important.

I just wish there would be someone I could hug

And tell them that I am scared of the future, darkness, loneliness.

But will fear ever heal?

Sometimes

I could tell you

"I'm alright, everything will be fine."


              


I'm so pessimistic.

I wish there could be a cure for that.

But what?

There's no cure for anything..

I'm Maria, I had an LJ back in mid '05 then I stopped lurking. and erm, I got another Lj.. lols

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